December is always a hard month for me.
It hasn't always been hard...in fact, the one Christmas we had our daughter it was wonderful. We were broke. Broker than broke. But we were happy and complete.
Now, we are far from broke. And mostly complete. Excpet for the whole Marcy left. Gosh I miss her.
We took a beautiful silver tree - with hot pink and lime green ornaments - to the cemetary last night. I've been dragging my feet about going there. I KNOW she isn't there (she's dancing in heaven). But it breaks my heart. So I just haven't gone.
I'm thankful I went. I was a bawling mess once we had her tree secured to the ground. It's. Just. So. Hard. I didnt take a photo of it (I sorta wished I had). *sigh* Some might think it is morbid to take a photo of a tree that is at your daughter's grave. The way I see it, I am documenting how we shared Christmas with her.
Ok. Enough of the sad. It's Christmas, or its almost Christmas.
I have been working on my December Daily. I am a couple of days behind, but have everything there for me to get caught up. My plan is to share the entire album when its complete.
I sorta feel like my album is 'kindergarden-ish' compared to some I've seen. I'm ok with that. I took what I had, in the time I had, and captured memories for later.
Another good thing that happened this month?
I turned 31. And, yes, it's a good thing. I am embracing it.
This is the year that I am going to quit having regrets.
One regret that I've had is that we never had a family photo done when Marcy was alive. We had no money, and even if we could have afforded it, Marcy was way too little (at barely 3 pounds), to take into public for a photo shoot. Anyway, six years later, I finally got my photoshoot. You can see it here.
Yeah, I need to loose some weight. But, other than that, I love these photos. They are us, in all of our goofy-not really sure how to smile, but trying anyway-selves! I cannot wait to scrapbook these with my Studio Calico kit!
Speaking of Studio Calico, I have a wish list for other there. Nothing can cheer a girl up like getting goodies in the mail, so here's my list!
Studio Calico Weekday Stamps (there was a month set, but I missed out on them. REGRET!)
All of the Jenni Bowlin Inks.
Betty Crocker, Buster Brown, and Dear Abby. I can only afford to get two of them this month, but I am in love with all three. Now to decide who I must leave behind. I just don't think I can decide!
That list isn't too long, huh? I am anxious to get to order the new kit Studio Calico. They always cheer me up! I've gotten their kits for a whole year now, and I have to say, I have NEVER regretted subscribing with them. Pure bliss in a box!
Ok, its late. John has a friend spending the night and I should probably go find them & see what they're up to. They are being way too quiet! I'm going to leave you with a photo (becauce Roscoe is just too cute NOT to share!)